I can only imagine what my childhood diaries contained [I burned them YEARS ago to HIDE THE EVIDENCE LOL!] and how very different my outlook is now.I have been ignorant, biased, and at times self-centered. Through God’s abundant grace, I live and I have triumphed.
Where does this all go? What has a childhood diary got to do with the video?
Allow me to explain…
By it’s very nature – religious faith grows. No matter what ‘books’ I read to locate answers to my life’s meaning, I will never ‘know and comprehend it all’. I submit to the Holy Spirit now…but I haven’t always done so… My soul has grown.
What I mean is [as far as this particular video is concerned] as the ‘apostles [including Muhammad]’ expanded their spiritual and multinational knowledge and relations, their perceptions changed, but people CLUNG to the Torah language because they feared what they did not understand; we fear and become blind to a greater expansion of knowledge, and thus greater responsibility [the old ‘ignorance is bliss’].
I admit, I admire how the Muslim faith require young boys to study the Qur’an – although they do not ‘require’ the same studiousness of females or the equal study of the Torah [this REEKS of closed-mindedness]. I admire their familial closeness and protectiveness, perhaps because I longed for (and still long for) it in my own CHRISTIAN life. If Christian parents epitomized and taught their sons and daughters to be the ‘spiritual leaders of the home’ at a young age, I wonder what American family relations would look like these days? I can only dream …
Recall how American feathers are ‘ruffled’ when civil and educational administrators tolerate ‘religious’ sentiments other than Christianity (recently, thwarting Christian values, which is only the FRUITS of America’s multicultural expansion). Have Christians not noticed the rise of ‘home-schooling’ and ‘private school’ attendance, yet ‘church attendance’ has plummeted? There is way too much ‘casting lots’ (half-hazard enlistment of others to teach our young) of responsibility on to someone else because parents are too busy, too ignorant, and too self-absorbed to accept the responsibility of becoming the ‘spiritual guide’ of their offspring. What kind of world are we leaving behind? I will say, it is refreshing to see so very many youth personifying, carrying, and defending their faith. It is as if these young, courageous youth (and, weren’t we ALL courageous in our youthful ignorance) figured out what the older generation did not have the tenacity to attempt , saying, “Hey, look, ya’ll ! The world did not collapse because I stood up for my faith and moral beliefs!”
I think we spend too much energy looking for answers outside ourselves [God will send me an answer, heal me, etc.] instead of ‘doing the work [personal study, reflection, reaching out to spiritual leaders, opening up dialogue with other faiths]’ and acting. The Holy Spirit requires a step of clouded faith – led by the Holy Spirit; not acting on gut or animistic instinct. The Holy Spirit reside within not without; humans create the existence of the Holy Spirit through our manifested human actions.
If our ‘works‘ do not ‘build up‘ [FRUITS] then by natural law of opposites, our empty works ‘destroy‘.
There is no ‘in-between’ – although, it may take time [sometimes centuries] for human works to outwardly manifest as ‘Godly work’ – and THIS is what we, as humans, have difficulty accepting…we may never see the fruits of our labor OR the internal rotting we cause; and we need to accept this. We need to TRUST in our belief that what the Creator touches through the Holy Spirit GROWS – otherwise it is never manifested – it whither and dies. Is this, perhaps, the reason the Islamic faith has, indeed, grown and the Christian faith has withered and fragmented? I am beginning to believe Christians have ‘gotten too big for their britches’. We have turned our ‘houses of worship’ into social centers, castles of abundance, and the assumption that church membership equates possession of a character of good standing. The hypocritical count continues to rise.
Perhaps some Christians NEED to take off the ‘greater than thou’ glasses and commit to heavy contemplation of a few pages from the Islamic Qur’an. If, for no other reason, to at least TRY to understand another’s point of view. Perhaps we need to revert backward to a moment in our evolution when personal character, familial love and responsibility, and spiritual pride reigned over pride, pampered egos, and material reward.
AGAIN, What do my thoughts have to do with the video?
If I do not ATTEMPT to understand the mentality and beliefs of the enemy of my faith, I will not recognize my own misguided intentions. The mirror never lies, although my sight [and therefore, my understanding and belief] may be distorted. I am beginning to consider the Qur’an as part of the ‘growth’ of the Holy Spirit through humanity. Maybe, just maybe, the Islamic faith grew out of the disgust the ancients had regarding the ‘politicization of Judaism’. Maybe some people grew weary of the Sadducees and Pharisees’ political, economic power (sound familiar?)
Of course, people have used the Torah, Gospels, and Qur’an to justify self-centered motives [the Crusades, jihad, military force, harsh discipline of children, ‘civility’ of death penalty, abortion, adultery, etc.]. Many have retorted: ‘You can find anything in scriptures to justify an evil act.’ My answer to this is… ‘Humans can mentally justify anything they do… It does not mean it is JUSTIFIED or CONDONED by the Holy Spirit’.
In other words, if I do not get up off my lazy buttocks and water/feed my garden, it will not nourish me, my children, or humanity at large.
Thus, why I write. Why I lay bare my mental ponderings…